Ashes

I sit and I watch and I wonder
I stare at those photographs as the edges curl in the fire
This match that you lit upon all my possibilities
Your beautiful hands that take the life from these dreams in my head
I see your delicate fingers wrap around this already bruised neck
I beg for release but you can’t hear my whispers
I want you to see what I need
I want to catch a glimpse of your world
I just want you to know that the fact that I care so much for you is what is killing me
So I sit in these ashes and let the wind take away all that is left
As tears fall in this empty room I sit and wait for your return
To take away another piece of this heart
Do you even see the ashes that cling to my heart
I sit in this silence and brush these ashes into my empty hands and try to imagine them whole once again

Beautifully Broken

I never used to understand what it meant to be beautifully broken. I never used to understand how brokenness could be seen as something of worth and beauty
But now I have realized I am beautifully broken
I lay at the foot of the cross broken and made beautiful through your redemption 
I come before you humble and you hold me close
I am a broken mess that is clay in your hands
I am ready for your power to wash over me
Have your way with this life of mine
I am following you
I want to feel your love every day, in every breath I take
I can not live without you, you are my everything
You have filled my heart and made me whole
You take my scars and make them into something amazing, something worth remembering
Everything is different through your eyes
You take this broken heart and use the pieces for something magnificent
You gently mold me with those beautiful hands and make me into someone who can stand for you
You are overwhelming in your power and your glory
I am swept off my feet by all you have done and you take my breath away with your splendor
So I come before you beautifully broken and madly in love with my indescribable Lord

Hold me Close

In you I find my strength, in you I find my acceptance
I need you to hold me close as I am gripped by fear
As the enemy once again tried to isolate me
But I cling to you because you, Lord are the only one who can hold me up
I cling to your promise of love and hope knowing you are always there.
I humble myself before you and I know that you will be with me always
You take away all these insecurities and show me your beauty
I feel your calm and realize there was nothing to worry about
You are so much greater then all I am afraid of


The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace. Psalm 29:11

I love silence
There is this part of me that loves to be surrounded by quiet
It is the reason why I love winter so much
That muffled silence that comes with the snow
The peace that comes with the softness of winter, and that refreshing rush of the cold wind filling my lungs
I like to just sit and think
It seems unbelievable to those who know me but this side of me is hidden
When I go to that quiet place I become my most vulnerable
It takes a special kind of person to bring out this aspect of me
I want to be able to sit with someone and not have to worry about filling the void with words and with jokes
Some days I just want to be. I want to enjoy the beauty of silence
There are so many wonders that can be found in those moments of quiet
So many sounds missed because of the rush I am always in
To just take a moment and enjoy the silence