Worthy of Love,
That is what my name means. That is one of the many reasons I love my name, because it shouts to the world that I am worthy of love. I am worth the effort needed to love. This realization and this claim on that statement is new and resounding in my life. That I am worthy, not just of love but of all that love entails.
Love has been in the air. I am surrounded by it, the love of God, of friendship and as I have been witnessing recently love within a relationship.
Relationships, always a topic I shy away from. Ask me about anything and I can have a serious conversation with you; ask me about relationships and I will turn it into a joke, making some sarcastic remark to change the subject. Mind you if you want to talk about your relationships and your struggles with them I am all ears and I want to listen and help but try to get me to talk to you and it probably won't happen, you might get little bursts of honesty but I hide when the tables are turned.
I am not writing this because I want a relationship, the exact opposite is true. I am finally falling in love with my Saviour and I would rather not be distracted by a relationship right now.
And when that relationship comes my way I have a couple expectations, for myself mostly. I have realized that there is this part of me that doesn't believe I am worthy of love. That I am not worthy of so many things that are part of being in a relationship.
That I am worthy of respect and admiration and so much more.
I am worthy of someone who can deal with my when I am crazy happy and also when I am frustrated. That they may not understand my thought process but will listen anyways.
Who understands that there are going to be moments when I will rant about the injustices of this world even though I don't have any kind of solution
That as much as I talk, I love silence.
That I am not patient and that I need someone who can be patient for me.
Someone who will be crazy with me, embarrass themselves and understand that at the end of the day I am a hopeless romantic
I feel this need to add a disclaimer that I am not being self centered and that I am not being obsessive. That this is just what I genuinely desire, that this has just been on my mind. That I have finally made the decision to claim this in my life as truth. That I am worth so much more in the eyes of God than I have given myself credit for.
That is what my name means. That is one of the many reasons I love my name, because it shouts to the world that I am worthy of love. I am worth the effort needed to love. This realization and this claim on that statement is new and resounding in my life. That I am worthy, not just of love but of all that love entails.
Love has been in the air. I am surrounded by it, the love of God, of friendship and as I have been witnessing recently love within a relationship.
Relationships, always a topic I shy away from. Ask me about anything and I can have a serious conversation with you; ask me about relationships and I will turn it into a joke, making some sarcastic remark to change the subject. Mind you if you want to talk about your relationships and your struggles with them I am all ears and I want to listen and help but try to get me to talk to you and it probably won't happen, you might get little bursts of honesty but I hide when the tables are turned.
I am not writing this because I want a relationship, the exact opposite is true. I am finally falling in love with my Saviour and I would rather not be distracted by a relationship right now.
And when that relationship comes my way I have a couple expectations, for myself mostly. I have realized that there is this part of me that doesn't believe I am worthy of love. That I am not worthy of so many things that are part of being in a relationship.
That I am worthy of respect and admiration and so much more.
I am worthy of someone who can deal with my when I am crazy happy and also when I am frustrated. That they may not understand my thought process but will listen anyways.
Who understands that there are going to be moments when I will rant about the injustices of this world even though I don't have any kind of solution
That as much as I talk, I love silence.
That I am not patient and that I need someone who can be patient for me.
Someone who will be crazy with me, embarrass themselves and understand that at the end of the day I am a hopeless romantic
I feel this need to add a disclaimer that I am not being self centered and that I am not being obsessive. That this is just what I genuinely desire, that this has just been on my mind. That I have finally made the decision to claim this in my life as truth. That I am worth so much more in the eyes of God than I have given myself credit for.
