This is something I wrote while in India. I was feeling inspired and this is what came of it. It is one of my favorite things I have ever written.
As i sat the other day washing clothes in dirty water with shampoo i started to think how i got to this point. How does a middle class, white, 18 year old girl, who's led a pretty cushioned life end up in India with no money, 6 other people from 5 different countries and happy as can be. i mean who would have thought that i would give up everything and end up with nothing in the eyes of the world. i mean i shower in dirty, cold water, flush my toilet by dumping a bucket of water down it and i wash all my clothes by hand. For the rest of the world this makes no sense but for me and so many Christians i know this is so normal!
i don't remember what a comfy bed feels like, what clean clothes smell like or what it's like to drive or cross the road without the fear dying is like. eating 3 regular meals a day hasn't happened for a while and i have no sense of time. but as i look back on these last 3 months living out of a suitcase on other people's floors, i realize these are some of the best times i have had in my whole life. i've never smiled or laughed as much as i have here. i've cried so much and i've been free to do that. i've had amazingly deep and amazingly funny talks with people that i never would have met in normal circumstances. And i've seen God work in every single second of it. i've seen him work in all our lives and i've seen him work through all of us.
so even as the last month approaches and i still don't have the slightest idea of what i am doing in the future i am beginning to realize that it doesn't really matter. it's easier said then done not to worry but as i look back and see how God has moved in these months i know that he and i will be going places. it really doesn't matter to me anymore if i have a closet or nice clothes or money, because as nice as they are to have, i have seen God do huge things without all that in the way. if he can do all this when i'm 18 in 6 months i can't imagine what else he has in store. And the only prerequisites i need are faith in him and bible at hand.
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