Patience

I am going home tomorrow.
I still can't process the fact that I am blessed enough to get to go to Chile
I have been anticipating this moment for over a year and I can't believe it is finally here
But this time will be so bittersweet
Because as fun as it will be I will have to leave and that is the last thing I want to do
I want to enter that country and never look back
I don't want to have to wait 4 more years
There are a lot of things I don't want to do
But I don't chose what happens in my life
When I surrendered my life to my father I also gave up my choice to do what I wanted to do
And he will pour blessing into my life when I follow him
But some days I just wish he would lead me back home
I love the life and the people he has blessed me with but there is always a part of my heart craving something different
And I hate to sound like a broken record but my heart crys out for something that is not mine to have right now