I am so often hit by the magnitude of God's word and his love for me. I will be reading my bible and as I slow down I realize the words being written have such power and I take them so for granted. I just sit there and am blown away by how applicable every single word is. I know this sounds silly and something blatantly obvious but I just love being blown away by God's word.
And to think of all the I have put God through, all that I have sinned and all that I have done to walk away and he loves me still. When I have forsaken him and and tried to walk on my own but he loves me anyway.
I don't know what I am trying to say but I do know that I have all these thoughts and inspiration swirling around my head but this exhaustion seems to be clouding everything.
But I was talking to a friend about spending time alone and not finding it selfish to say no when friends want to hang out. She was mentioning the fact that she was learning to fight complacency and how taking a step back from friends will help take a step closer to God. I realized how true that is, friends can be such a distraction from the things that God has. Being with my friends too much causes me to become so dependent on their guidance and love in my life that I get distracted from God's guidance and approval and the love that I need to get from him.
There are so many different things that God has been showing me or whispering to me as I spend this week alone. I thought this week of working at night would suck because it would mean no sleep and less time with friends but it has given me the chance to have free time and just relax and spend time alone and enjoy the summer and enjoy the silence. I am so excited to go back to normal sleep patterns and working during the day but I am also grateful that I had this week to really use the time I was given to feel productive and feel like I could take a moment and just breath.
And to think of all the I have put God through, all that I have sinned and all that I have done to walk away and he loves me still. When I have forsaken him and and tried to walk on my own but he loves me anyway.
I don't know what I am trying to say but I do know that I have all these thoughts and inspiration swirling around my head but this exhaustion seems to be clouding everything.
But I was talking to a friend about spending time alone and not finding it selfish to say no when friends want to hang out. She was mentioning the fact that she was learning to fight complacency and how taking a step back from friends will help take a step closer to God. I realized how true that is, friends can be such a distraction from the things that God has. Being with my friends too much causes me to become so dependent on their guidance and love in my life that I get distracted from God's guidance and approval and the love that I need to get from him.
There are so many different things that God has been showing me or whispering to me as I spend this week alone. I thought this week of working at night would suck because it would mean no sleep and less time with friends but it has given me the chance to have free time and just relax and spend time alone and enjoy the summer and enjoy the silence. I am so excited to go back to normal sleep patterns and working during the day but I am also grateful that I had this week to really use the time I was given to feel productive and feel like I could take a moment and just breath.
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