When everything gets switched around

Do you ever just get hit with this self awareness that just knocks you off your feet?
You are walking around and everything is fine and than you acknowledge some thought and you are hit with the overwhelming truth behind the statement
And it isn't a fun feeling, everything felt normal and now there is no getting away from this new revelation
Not like you didn't know this before, it is nothing new, but it was in a box tucked away in the dark recesses of self denial
I mean everything was fine I was in no need of this overwhelming and ever present thought
But there is no closing that box once it has been opened
No shoving it back in the corner and letting it collect dust
It is there, center stage, no ignoring what needs to be dealt with
How do you begin to deal with this well hidden idea?
With this truth that you never wanted to acknowledge was a truth?
It gets into every thought and every action, takes your perception of the world and shakes it up
Now everything is off balance
It was all going according to plan
And now, well now it has all changed