God why is it so hard sometimes?
So hard to see you in every situation and in every person for that matter.
I want to see the world the way you do, I want to see your beauty and your masterplan.
I want to love as you do, I want to love unconditionally.
I want to be slow to anger and abounding in love
But I'm not. I have a temper and I let it get the best of me so often
I feel a sense of right in getting angry for someone else's injustices. I feel a sense of wrong that I want to fix.
But that is not my place. You are the judge of all things and I need to put this in your hands.
I don't know how to put this into your hands. I don't even know what it is I need to put into your hands.
I can't define this hurt and this anger combined.
One small issue that can set me on fire
I want your patience God
I strive to be more like you, to walk in your footsteps
But I didn't do that today
I let my emotions run unchecked and I didn't walk in your footsteps
I was blinded by hurt and indignation
Lord, hold me close. I want to be where you are
I want to have these blinders removed and see clearly
Take away this bitterness and show me all that you have
Give me patience for your timing, because I know you have something/someone amazing waiting for me
Fill my heart with all you have for me