glistening green eyes

you walk into church, mask firmly in place. ready to take on the hoards with that faltering smile.
acting gets harder as each day passes. but if you let your mask slip people may actually see who you are and how broken you are.
you wonder what life would be like if there was someone to walk with. someone to hold you as you collapse from all the weight and the burden of this secret. a secret that you have carried for far too long.
i wish i could hold your hand and tell you it is all going to be okay. someone is going to come soon enough. just hold on. i wish you would take your mask off. i see the beauty in those eyes. your pain gives you so much strength. i know you don't see it right now but God has an incredible plan for your life. he is going to take the broken jar that you are and turn you into a masterpiece.
there is no need to be scared. there are people like you. you don't need to walk this alone, even though i know you will. you've been alone for so long, walking this rocky path, with no sign of the light at the end.
you see the judgement in their eyes and you know that your mask will never fully come off for them. they don't want to see damage. they prefer the pretty little packages and lies. but it's okay, there are people out there that are going to heal you, that are going to love you like Jesus does.
so as you pull down your long sleeve shirt and hide that note, just hold on for one more day. don't let go. you are so young, and so beautiful. 
i see the way you silently cry out with no response. all i ask is that you find one reason to remain here with me. don't lose hope. 
someone will stay by your side through all the hurt, they aren't going to walk away. don't lose faith in God because of the church. we are all broken and just trying to hide it, just like you are. 
as you begin to crumble from the inside out just know that one day you are going to feel love unimaginable and joy that is unspeakable.
just put your hope in the fact that tomorrow may be different. scars fade and memories blur. pain will become muted. your mask will be pulled off and the world will see what you look like when you actually smile.