authenticity, what does that even mean?
you say I'm open to God's plan but you have no idea how closed i have become
i feel a wall go up around my heart
i feel myself slowly withdraw into myself
i hold up arms in defence, my natural instinct
you've seen my strength and now you'll see my weakness
you'll never know when i am weak because i won't let you see
as my smile slowly strains across my face, the subtle difference between genuine and false, something you will never notice
i know i should hold on but i just want to let go
to just fall apart.