so much left unsaid, and so much that can't be expressed. language isn't the only thing that makes it impossible to talk to you. you are demeaning and manipulative. you think you can get what you want because that is what life has always been. you walk away at the first sign of trouble. you blame the world for your unhappiness and never seem to look at yourself. you take your past and where as a badge giving you the right to walk around wounded and angry. you're not the first to have a hard life and you certainly wont be last. get that chip off your shoulder and learn to look around. you walk around talking of God and all he can do but i never see you living it out. you question authority and you don't know how to respect those around you. you are infuriating. i cant believe i let you get the best of me once again. i think you are a scared little boy too afraid to look in the mirror and see what you have become. when you decide to wake up and actually let God work in you, let me know. i bet God can do crazy things in your life and it would be cool to see them happen. but for right now, just keep bouncing around from place to place and see where you end up in the end. i'm not that angry at you, just sad that this is where you have ended up. you have been given unlimited chances by God to walk with him but you are only willing to walk with God according to your terms. there is nothing left say but good luck...