and freedom

Freedom is a complicated word
How does one become truly free of their past?
How do you truly let go of all that has been done to you and all that you have done?
Freedom, so often talked about and yet so unattainable.
Always told to just let go and be free knowing God is with you.
What does letting go mean?
It's so easy to say the words and mean them but how do you live them?
To feel peace in a moment and then feel it slip away.
These unattainable hopes
Dreams begin to lose there colour as moments slip past
God is in everything and his plans are grand. But following blindly has never been my forte
There is a time for everything. I guess this is a time of reflection as opposed to a time of Joy.
Patience is a virtue I have yet to attain.
Vulnerability comes and goes as it pleases
I'm not wallowing in pity but trying to reflect. I want these blinders off that have clouded my vision.
The past that has caused my outlook to be jaded. No matter how hard I try this bitterness seems to always remain. Just waiting for the other shoe to drop
I'm not making excuses and I'm not looking for sympathy.
I need to take a step back from this technology laden world and get back to the basics
Let God be the true priority. Let the relationships that are right in front of me be the ones I try to grow in.
Allow myself to believe all that I have been doubting
To go back to the words written so long ago and find the truth within them that set me free.
Words full of love, passion, grace, mercy, forgiveness...